So, I have a confession to make...as a former teacher and a fairly organized person, I like to be in control...I love making lists and doing things to make my family's life run more easily. I loved the nesting phase of my pregnancy b/c my house was so organized and clean. And then came baby, and the Lord decided to teach me a lesson of dependence. I am in control of nothing...my energy level, my baby's moods, my emotions, my body, my appetite; it is all out of my hands. I really thought that after two weeks, I would have gotten into the swing of things, but as we head into the fourth of week of life with baby I feel like I am slowly returning back to normal, and that normal is not the normal I knew before. I think like with many other things, I want to get this right the first time, and if I can't I get frustrated. The Lord continues to show that He is ultimately in control. So even if my sweet baby girl hasn't learned how to sleep through the night, my God is still all powerful and knows what I need before I ask. The lesson in faith continues day by day....everyday brings a chance to learn more reliance on the Lord instead of my own strength. More updates soon:)
2 comments:
I honestly still struggle with this...four kids later! Keep working on the night thing. You WILL get there, I promise. My daughter was two months old and it just happened. You will continue to find your "new normal". And then as your daughter develops her personality, you will find out how little control you have (especially the days you pick them up from preschool and find a long behavior note attached to their locker :). I have always said I learned more about God once I became a mom.
So true, Reba...
Post a Comment